Since I haven’t had an official job since the end of July, I have gotten to experience the occupation of a couch surfer…and while Lincoln would not be my first destination to do this in (Long Beach sounds like a better place) it has been a glorious experience and I’ve realized that I, up until now, have taken getting a job and an education way too seriously.
Yes, they are important but whatever happened to relaxing and just kicking back? Yes, it has gotten boring at times and I do crave human interaction at some points, for the most part its been a great month. Now only if I could do this forever!
I’ve realized that – Yes, there is a level of potential inside of me that for some reason (either guilt, embarrassment or just plain stubbornness) I won’t go to. I don’t know how to open that part of me up, but I am determined to find out. Maybe it will take a move as drastic as going to a place with just the things in my suitcase and having to make it that way or taking a two week vacation…without a cell phone, with out a computer, just me, myself and I.
But the real world is coming back to me quickly and loans have to be repaid…but I am making a committment right here and right now that I will not let those things hold me back any longer from doing things that I think I should or want to do……